believe it or not, this weekend has left me rested and energized, ready to take on my next challenge.... Art classes.
I am by no means an artist. I've always had issues drawing people, but i started doodling and sketching in a sketchbook, and I found this amazing picture of Daniel looking off to the side with the sun highlighting part of his face and it just reminded me of how amazing he was, as a guy friend, *boyfriend,* driver, brother, etc. So i sketched it and I love it. I feel like i actually have accomplished something in regards to art, which is by no means my forte. I can write and kinda sing... I'm better at musical stuff than I am with art of any kind, but then I've been known to draw people in those times of worship where God gives you this amazing vision and then all of a sudden, boom. Art. Not award winning but still! it's ART!
So i'm taking art with someone who's known me forever and a day. she taught me art in 1st grade and her daughter and I were practically best friends growing up :-) I'm so excited!!! I officially start her class tomorrow though we've already met once.
As far as the ever present guy problems, I'm actually sorta, almost, maybe (?) content being single. I have a picture of Daniel looking at me with this quirky smile on the bulletin board above my desk, and all I really have to think about is how he has been one of my best friends to date. God seems to tell me through letters what I need to hear, and sometimes he'll use other people, but basically He told me to work on friendships that are deep, and let Him romance me but as time goes on, God will let me be romanced by the guy He's molding for me! I have to admit, when He told me that, I was floored. it's definitely been a struggle, don't get me wrong, but God is wanting to romance me (!) and I want to let him (!!!) and i can't believe it's all happening.
"Don't bury me, i'm not yet dead (echo)....." that is my theme song for this season in my life. Amen and HALLELUJAH!!! *superchick is my hero... after God and Larry-boy...*
the greatest thing about this weekend? I saw the tombstone of my several times great grandma in north texas.... we had to drive down this road and hike through an old pasture (that my ancestors likely owned) and walk a little in the woods and then BOOOM! a ton of markers for my ancestors' graves. There was amanda, and david, and mary, and margaret..... David was the first to come to texas in the early 19th century. It was like I stepped back into time to see my great grandpa, so handsome, sitting tall on his horse and looking at me and thinking "You have done well, child." I want to know what he was like, and how he lived and what he did... it was so beautiful to be there with all the graves of my ancestors surrounding me but at the same time, kinda eerie! I mean, some of these people have been dead 150 or more years! But they are family. It was so amazing to see the legacy left behind by my father's family. So many men of God.... Maybe my favorite part tho was when we went to my great great aunt(?) susie's house, all prim and proper and beautiful yellow (though extremely deteriorated) and the sign on the kitchen door... "Wipe your feet. The maid is MEAN!" I'm glad to know that humor has not left the family, nor has sweet tooths. And wordsmithing... evidently my grandfather's generation was excellent at using words to describe something or express emotions. And it is sooo amazing to see how that, too, has been passed down for generations. I don't want family reunions to end, because I want my kids to see where there ancestors are buried, to hear the stories of generations lost, and to witness memories in the making. What i've missed in my childhood, and what I am gaining now. My children will be blessed to know that they are a generation among a lengthy legacy to embrace Christ as Savior when they come to the point of realizing He is all they need.
He is all i need. He provided for my family in generations past through pain and suffering and His providing still.
One day, I'll look back and realize maybe it's not as bad as i thought...
but life right now is pretty good.
hisgirlkari at 12:36 a.m.